The Sunday Phone Call

Drab December, sleet falling.

Dogs loosely coiled in torpor.

Horses nose-down in hay.

It's the hour years ago

I used to call my parents

or they'd call me.

The phone rings. Idly

empty of expectation

I answer. It's my father's

voice. Pop! I say, you're dead!

Don't you remember
that final heart attack,
Dallas, just before
Kennedy was shot?

Time means nothing here,
He's jolly, expansive.

You can wait eons for an open line.

Time gets used up but

comes back. You know.

Like Ping-Pong.

Ping-Pong! The table in

the attic. My father, shirtsleeves

rolled, the wet stub of

a burnt-out cigarette

stuck to his lower lip as

he murdered each one

of my three older brothers

and me yearning under the eaves,

waiting for my turn.

You sound ... just like yourself,

I say. I am myself, goddammit!

Anyway, what's this
about an accident?

How did you hear about it?
I read it somewhere. Broke
your neck, et cetera.

He says this vaguely,

his shorthand way

of keeping feelings at bay.

Now I'm indignant.

But I almost died!

Didn't I tell you
never buy land on a hill?
It's worthless. What's
an educated dame like you
doing messing with horses?
Messing with horses is
for punks.
Then, a little

softer, I see you two've
put a lot of work into
that hunk of real estate.

Thanks. Thanks for even
noticing. We love it here.
We'll never sell.

Like hell you won't!
You will!

Pop, I say, tearing up,

let's not fight for once.
My only Poppa, when
do I get to see you?

A long pause. Then,

coughing his cigarette cough,

Pupchen, he says,

I may be dead but
I'm not clairvoyant.
Behave yourself.

The line clicks off.