The Truth Shall Set You Free

A reader writes:

Weil speaks for me as well, but with a little more of the dark night thrown in and less of Jesus. 

As a Catholic, I recently decided to be honest with my profound doubt and attend mass in that state of acknowledged doubt (bordering on utter disbelief and bemusement).  I am sure you appreciate the spiritual peril this entails to some who aspires to orthodoxy in word and deed. 

Astonishingly, never before has the beauty of the Mass been so visible to me, never has Jesus seemed more accessible. The thought occurred to me that atheism honestly held can be a perfect expression of Faith.