The First Time

A memoir from Brian Paddick, formerly London's police chief and now a candidate for mayor:

He had realised I was gay and wanted to sleep with me. I was petrified. I was 21 and a virgin. 'All I want to do is sleep with you,' Barry said. 'We don't even have to touch.' His proposition brought a mixture of desire and absolute terror. Trembling, I nodded and we went to bed. After a while we fell asleep. Several hours later I woke up to find I wasn't shaking any more; my desire overcame my fear. I had mixed feelings about this first sexual encounter. Everything I had learnt screamed that this was wrong - at the same time it felt instinctively right.

Somehow, I can't imagine a candidate for a big city mayor in the US publishing such a book.