Cops fear a more serious consequence of the push for better numbers, that it propels colleagues forward in borderline situations. This February, in the Bronx, a narcotics cop chased 18-year-old Ramarley Graham into the bathroom of his family's apartment. Officer Richard Haste suspected Graham of carrying a gun; during a struggle he shot and killed the unarmed man. One ex-cop, who has worked some of the same streets as Haste, says it appears tragic tactical mistakes were made."But it's important to remember that cops always have the need for numbers in their minds," he says. "It might not be the top cause of what happened, him chasing the guy into the house, but it's part of the motivation getting you to that position. You're trying to get in there and get that body. So is it the pressure of 'I can't let this guy get away'? Or is he a number?"
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