I dreamed that you had ceased to love me --


not that you had come from other beds


back to mine, or gone from mine to others,


just that something in your heart had stopped.

I willed myself awake to find you still


beside me. It was just a dream, I thought,


yet when I turned to kiss you, in your eyes


I saw that you had ceased to love me.

I willed myself awake a second time


to find myself alone, as I have been


these many months, but did not know if it


was terror or relief I felt, and whether

dreams unfold the past or make the future


plain. I dreamed that you had ceased to love me,


and know when I see nothing in your eyes


I can't dream myself awake a third time.



David Solway is the author of which was published this fall.