Two Working Parents, One Sick Kid

When both mom and dad have jobs, the cultural default is that mom will be the one to take the day off and stay at home.
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Alexis Madrigal

Wednesday night, our little boy came down with his first real illness, a few weeks shy of his first birthday. He started crying in the middle of the night, and when my wife picked him up, he was hot as a stone warmed by a fire. 

The illness got worse Thursday and Friday. Saturday was hellish. He was writhing in pain on our bed and there was nothing we could do. The pediatrician thought it was probably hand, foot, and mouth disease, which is horrible, if not as horrible as it sounds. 

On Sunday, his fever fell and a rash came up on his back and tummy. That made the diagnosis easy: He had roseola, a common virus. As expected, he began to feel better, hour by hour, until this evening, when we put him to bed, it was easy to forget what he'd been through, and what we, as his parents, had survived, too. 

Roseola is not really a big deal. Kids get sick all the time. This being our maiden voyage, it seemed apocalyptic, but in our clearer-headed moments, we knew how lucky we'd been. Our son has been healthy and strong for almost his entire first year on the planet. 

Even this minor illness presented us with a dilemma. We, like many people, live far from our families. We, like many people, have some childcare during the week so that we can work. Because we, like many people, are a two-job household. 

My wife just launched a new, very cool thing. And my tenure as the deputy editor of this website began six long weeks ago. 

But when you've got a sick kid, there's no sending him with the nanny or bundling him off to the daycare. Someone has got to take care of that kid, and if your family lives far away, that someone is going to be one of the parents. 

Through this episode, I've been thinking about the difficulties of the two-working-parent household. Whose job should take precedence? Who has to call everyone and cancel meetings? Who shoulders the responsibility of family?

For most of the people in previous generations, the answer was easy: Mom. She'd take care of it! In our family, we have tried to maintain as much parity in parenting as possible, for my sake, as much as for hers. I love spending time with our son, and have arranged my whole life to see as much of him as possible. Being a competent father is important to me, and I'm doing pretty well for a first-timer, I think.

And yet—in this first real moment of distress—we found ourselves defaulting to the societal norm. We both assumed that my wife would take care of our son, and my work days would continue like normal. 

Our son, however, had other ideas. For some reason, and for the first time in his life, he decided that he could not be more than three inches from me at any time. Eating, he sat in his high chair, holding onto my shirt. Nursing, he wanted to dangle his feet onto my arms. Sleeping, he crouched next to me and laid his head on my belly, before scooting up onto my chest and drifting into dreams as he had as a newborn. 

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My wife handled this state of affairs beautifully, not least because she had some essays to edit. I, on the other hand, felt the full weight of parenthood finally pressing down on me. The buck stops with me, I thought, but I am not the buckstopper. For as involved as I've been, and as much as I've tried to prioritize our family, when cry came to scream, I could always hand him off to my wife and she could always pacify him. 

Now, it was on me, and he was sick, and he was sad. And I had work. Lots of it. Something had to give.

It was exceedingly hard to say, "Hey, I need to take some time off to care for my sick son." Most workplaces, blue or white collar, would not be nearly as receptive to this request as The Atlantic. But even having a sane, respectful employer didn't make it easy. What was holding me back was something bigger than the company.

The state of affairs is absurd and is worth saying out loud: I've been led by a sexist culture to believe that men don't take care of sick kids. That's what Moms do.

But here was my son clinging to my legs, crying, and lifting his arms to me like I was the only person in the whole world who could make him feel better. And, for these few days at least, I was

So I sucked it up and took some time off to take care of the kid. My wife and I juggled our jobs and emails and editing assignments along with our kid's sickness and each other's precarious mental states. And it was really hard. Goddamn it was hard. We are worked

But as I sat at the park with him today, the little guy recovered enough to bounce up and down with joy at the sight of a dog chasing a ball, but not quite recovered enough to go scooting after the animal, my wife texted. 

"I am feeling a lot of guilt about you having to reconfigure your day so much," she said. "Is it ok? Can I release the guilt?" 

And I realized I was holding onto some guilt, too. Like I had abandoned my work, which I care deeply about, for a sick kid. Then, it suddenly seemed crazy that we were both feeling guilt over working and taking care of a kid. Of course it was okay for both of us to be doing exactly what we were doing.

So I sent back a picture of him, his hair sticking up in the back like Alfalfa and I said, "What could be better?" And, I added, "We both work: this is the reality of it."

And she said, "I’ll admit there’s something kind of—I don’t know what the word is, but it’s a good word—about juggling this together as a team."

It had seemed like a hassle, but it was the point that we do this negotiation. That's both the cost and the payoff of breaking out of the gender roles that make these decisions both automatic and invisible. We get to do what works for us, for our kid, for our family, but in return, we have to juggle and manage and figure it all out on the fly. 

There's a lot of policy work that needs to happen to keep women not just in the workforce, but thriving there. Let's start with paid maternity leavePaternity leave, too. And there are binders full of best-practices that most companies don't implement.

But no policy solution could have intervened in our situation. The variables were few and personal: two parents, two jobs, one sick kid. The default of the culture is to value the man's work over the woman's.

So, we had to make the conscious decision to treat our work equally and let Dad lead the child care while Mom worked. Because that's what made sense for our family.

My hunch is that if enough dads stopped leaning on their partners in these situations—talk about unacknowledged male privilege—the culture would change. The problem of caring for sick kids would be seen as a universal necessity for the continuation of the species, instead of a site of concessions to working mothers.

He's asleep now. He ate well. He played at the park. The rash is fading. We feel less staggered by anxiety and exhaustion. Peace has returned.

And for what it's worth, the normal order of things has been restored, and Grandma has arrived and Grandpa is due next week, much to the relief of everyone.

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Alexis Madrigal is the deputy editor of TheAtlantic.com. He's the author of Powering the Dream: The History and Promise of Green Technology. More

The New York Observer has called Madrigal "for all intents and purposes, the perfect modern reporter." He co-founded Longshot magazine, a high-speed media experiment that garnered attention from The New York Times, The Wall Street Journal, and the BBC. While at Wired.com, he built Wired Science into one of the most popular blogs in the world. The site was nominated for best magazine blog by the MPA and best science website in the 2009 Webby Awards. He also co-founded Haiti ReWired, a groundbreaking community dedicated to the discussion of technology, infrastructure, and the future of Haiti.

He's spoken at Stanford, CalTech, Berkeley, SXSW, E3, and the National Renewable Energy Laboratory, and his writing was anthologized in Best Technology Writing 2010 (Yale University Press).

Madrigal is a visiting scholar at the University of California at Berkeley's Office for the History of Science and Technology. Born in Mexico City, he grew up in the exurbs north of Portland, Oregon, and now lives in Oakland.

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